Just Jess, diary of a fit girl

I had a lot of fear around getting pregnant. Not the normal stuff though. I didn't have as big of fear of if I would stay pregnant, would I get tonnes of morning sickness - as someone who hates throwing up   this was a concern. I did have some qualms about if I could get pregnant since I had almost zero cycle for close to 2 yrs.. that's part of another post.. One of my biggest fears was what pregnancy would do to my body. Social media, the way people talk about child birth etc all sends the message that pregnancy and child birth will ruin your body Now, being someone who has had body issues for quite some time this is a terrifying thought What if - I don't "bounce back" like my social media feed shows What if - I can't lose the baby weight What if - I am covered in stretch marks What if - My husband doesn't find me physically attractive anymore What if -I stop working out and just get huge I had a lot of people say to me that I would bounce back

You may recall from previous posts that I have done a couple of triathlons (swim/bike/run) in the past. Specifically a SPRINT distance for my 31st birthday (750M/20km/5km) and a HALF IRONMAN for 2018 (2km /90km/21km) and I was geared up to do the Cultus Lake Triathlon that Sept for my very first STANDARD (or Olympic) distance (1.5km/40km/10km) however, I found myself newly pregnant and was too lethargic to be training. Honestly, I had almost no interest in training so I requested to move my name to the following year and just hoped that 5 months would be long enough to get back in to racing shape. Now, I am a leisure athlete. I am competitive to ME. I am not a professional athlete by any stretch of the imagination. A podium finish could be somewhere in my future, but not until I log some serious hours in each discipline. I digress. April 16, our son arrived. A bit later than I anticipated but still on time I had a cesarean and being told several times I had a major abdominal surger

I watch baseball. My husband does not. In fact, 90% of the time sports are on in our house it's because I have put it on, not him. I am a Toronto Blue Jays fan. Have been for a while. When I wear BlueJays gear it's because I actually watch not strictly because they're the Canadian team. For the past ... 6ish years I have gone down with friends to Seattle when the Jays are in town! Once I got to go to Toronto for a work function and the Jays were out of town (dang!) and I would have gone to a home game which is one of those bucket list things people talk about I have been to Rogers centre in Toronto, and the JAYS store to buy way cheaper (and funner) Jays Gear. I digress, since I actually reside in BC it's not the easiest to get to Ontario simply to watch games. So, my gfs and I will make the trek to Seattle to watch a game or games when the Jays are in town This year, as with most things is a little different. Ethan came with this time. Now, he was a whopping

As promised, here is my update of how softball has been going now that the season is over. I have played softball for about 20 yrs. I have also played slow-pitch. Now, when I tell most people that I 'play ball' they assume its slow pitch. Both of these sports are considered 'ball' however, I am no good at slow pitch haha They have a different set of rules and although not always, it's co-ed So, I play competitive women's fastpitch. It is wear the pitcher throws the ball underhand from a 'windmill' style. At the Senior level there is A.B.C and D divisions. A level is where you play in college level you could play team Canada etc. D level is considered the HOUSE level where everyone plays etc. The team I play for, Pink Energy, is a C team. Most of our players have played rep ball at some point growing up and as a team we played Rep for a season or two over the 9 years I've played with them Last year was a great year. We played well and won pla

In the post partum stage... people talk about it being a balancing act. I would agree that it's true. In this stage (3m PP) I have found some kind of life balance. Do we get a lot done? Sometimes. Do we sleep in? Yes. If baby will sleep so with this mum. I am currently on maternity leave with my first baby, so there's no other children (or pets) to attend to... it's whatever we feel like doing.. AKA what I feel like doing because at three months you don't get much of a say I have returned to playing softball. I use that term loosely as I cannot make the later games (830 pm starts) due to our schedule at home and baby isn't always asleep by then but my husband has to be in bed before games are over due to his early starts Regardless, I have returned to ball. Running post C section is... interesting. I was never super fast but definitely feeling slower. Starting off is hard and keeping speed is difficult. I stopped running around week 33 while pregnant and sprints

Well, here it is... my birth story **there is dialogue that could be considered TMI to some, you have been warned I had been told that everyones story is different and I didn't doubt this to be true but I was curious what others went through before my own journey into parenthood. They   were right, my story is very much my own. Here we are 4+ wks later and I'm here for an update to recant the news My husband and I welcomed a little boy on tues April 16, 2019 I finished work on April 2nd  and then it was getting things ready, organizing the babies room and setting up the crib. I even re arranged my room when my husband was out of town (because he would never have let me move things on my own) haha Friday April 12 I wake up overnight with .. cramps. I was told this could be the very earliest stages of things to come... as in maybe the next week? They were similar to period cramps, they woke me up several times throughout the night Saturday April 13 - I start having tig

So here we are MAT leave. Today is sunday March 31, I am "due" with my first babe April 8th. On the eve of 39 weeks pregnant and my last day of work was yesterday Weird. I know, I've been pregnant since July. It's not like this is a new development. I have a healthy and active baby (still growing) and I've been feeling really good. However, it still doesn't seem real that I'm going to have a physical baby very soon Let's Recap: If you've followId along at all through my previous posts I'm someone who is "busy" I glorify being busy for sure. There are people who do less than me and there are people who do more. I work three jobs (works out to 6 days a week most weeks) I play softball, do triathlon, attempt a social life and go to the gym frequently. Prior to becoming pregnant I did a half iron man triathlon. I was in the gym between 5 & 7 days a week. I ate a pretty restricted diet. (No one told me to, I just did) I was fa

Well considering it's halfway through Feb I feel as though another update is in order. In my last post I mentioned that my husband and I are expecting. Our first baby is due April 2019. No, we do not know the gender it's going to be a surprise :) I figured I'd do a little recap of how things have gone thus far... To start things off my husband and I have been together for almost 15 yrs, married for 5+ No, we were not high school sweethearts. I met him the summer I graduated high school. (2004) We were young, both hadn't dated many others and we took things slowly.... waited 5 yrs to move in together 7 + yrs to get married and another 5 to have a baby haha Now, being a 'responsible' young adult I was on the pill as I was basically terrified to get pregnant by mistake. I have always felt like I would have a family at some point. Even 10 yrs ago I would have told you I'd like to be "done having kids" by 30. Now, at 32 I'm expecting my first